It's not as easy as it seems
I recall one of my primary school teachers, Mrs Low, telling me that her University was the best time she had in school. Looking back the 3.5 yrs I spent in Uni, I do not quite experience that much joy she had then. Perhaps time was different, perhaps she studied what she enjoyed, perhaps.. a whole host of reasons (or unexplainable resons) may be avaliable.
Environmental engineering was my 1st choice. I thought I would get to study certain things. However after these years of education, I feel that this particular field in the university was very often slighted, with another more 'prestigious' branch given more 'attention' or more space to develop. I only ended up liking a few of the classes I took. I'm not satisfied, not happy. I do not feel that my potential is realised. I do not see much future in it. Maybe I'm more of a "Jill of all trades, Master of none" person- too specialiased/in-depth topics push me away.
Perhaps, that one elusive niche is out there waiting for me to seek it. It's a matter of time before I find it, and maybe get into that "dream" field/job. But I hate waiting. Waiting makes me fustrated and furious. However I do not know how to start. Cos I tried quite a lot of stuff, and already cancelled out jobs I would not see myself happy in- sales, insurance, research, anything inside a cleanroom, planning...... How much more to go?
Super Pig mused on 11:08 pm
